I remember changing my mind when they wheeled me back to the birthing room. I decided that I was quite comfortable with Landon in my belly (although heart burn, bruised ribs and cankles the size of tree trunks would say otherwise). I really wasn't ready for him to be out. But when his little heart rate started to drop and they uttered the words "emergency c-section" i just wanted him safely in my arms.
There's something quite peculiar that happens when you see your child for the first time. In an instant, a minutes-old infant changes your entire life yet it still feels like they have always been a part of it.
This year was so different than others. We had a big note on our calendar marking his birthday and everyday he would ask how many days were left. He was acutely aware that his special day was coming and amidst the craziness of our summer schedule, we wanted him to know just how special his day really was. How else do you do that but light birthday candles on your morning peanut butter and nutella sandwich? He couldn't believe his day was already starting out like this!
Landon's best friend, Hanani, came over to swim too and if his birthday would have ended right there, he would have been perfectly happy. Friends do that for birthdays.
Yes, we got him tape for his birthday. Duct tape, masking tape and scotch tape. If you could see a picture of his room (which sometime I'll have to put a picture up here) you would know why tape was the best gift ever. This kid LOVES him some tape. He tapes pictures on the wall, makes contraptions with tape, finds sticks and toilet paper rolls and old game pieces to hang with tape. He is insane for tape. I couldn't imagine what he would have done had any of the stores here had the kind of duct tape with prints on it or in different colors. We might have had to pick him off the floor.
Somehow we have a five-year old. I hate to think how quickly time is flying by but with every passing year there is something more to love about our little guy. Or big guy, rather. Wouldn't want to accidentally say "little" in front of Landon.